Can’t Always Get What You Want

Can’t always get what you want

People always wants more, even they have what they need. Sometimes they success, but most times they fail. We are greedy, but the reality makes us realistic. I’m no exception. In my middle school career, I tried to study really hard on Chinese, but a series of things happened that broke my dream.

After a terrible Grade 7 year in my middle school, I stepped into Grade 8. Everything started brand new, except my Chinese grade and my terrible relationship with my Chinese teacher. In Grade 7, I had a conflict with my teacher because I used some homework time to study English in order to study aboard. From now on my teacher was nonchalant to me. I tried really hard to make progress, and I really desire that my teacher can recognize my effort, but these things never happened. I still can remember that in a test I tried really hard to earn a second highest score on the reading section, but my teacher praised the persons who earned the first and third highest score, and indeed, she skipped me. I don’t know what I was feeling at that time, because I lost sense in that moment and I don’t know what I was feeling. So in Grade 8 I want to change this situation, or I will fail the High School Entrance Test on Chinese literature, and going abroad will be my only choice.

But things didn’t go as I expected. One day during the class, we were going to have a quiz. When she was passing the quizzes, she passed the quiz to everybody, except me. I could not imagine how awkward it is, because it was out of my imagination, as all the people stared at me for a second and when they saw my eyes, they turn their heads around. After class, I found my Chinese teacher, and I asked:

“Why did you not give me that quiz?”

“What? Oh! Do you even want it? I can give you now if you want.” She answered ironically.

“How the world has a teacher like you. Don’t even know what is respect.” I answered back with anger.

“Ohh…I don’t know what is respect. Ok, whatever you say.”She answered, and she left the classroom, left me alone.

I feel like that I just encounter the worse moment of my life, I had never been disdained so bad. My parents don’t even dare to treat me like this, but my Chinese teacher did. I give up the thought of continuing to study Chinese literature, because I found myself without no motivation while studying Chinese literature. Every time I think about Chinese literature, this moment will thrust up to the top of my head. I can not desire more on the relationship between my Chinese literature teacher and me, I can not get what I wanted which is to restore this relationship. I decided to go ahead, and use all the time to study English. I use my homework time that supposed to do my Chinese literature homework to study English, and I use the class time to study English too. Now thinking back to what happened in Grade 8, I’m glad that I did not get what I wanted, because I already had what I need, which is the opportunity to study abroad and have more opportunities available.