My Intangible Chain

Although the cross chain that I wear around my neck looks like a normal chain to everyone else, to me, it is much deeper than that. My chain is gold, shiny, and a very appealing  chain that has a lot of history. The chain used to belong to my grandfather, who died from lung cancer in two thousand and twelve when I was younger. I remember when I got his chain because I told my grandmother that I wanted to look at some chains to buy and she told me she had just found my grandfather’s. It was almost too perfect because the one time I was looking at buying a chain, my grandfather’s chain was found. It was almost like he wanted me to have that chain, although it could never be proven.  My grandmother said she had just found it after a while because she was looking for something else and she came across it. 

This chain means so much to me that I am able to wear it. The first reason why it is so special is because it serves as a remembrance of my grandfather. I always want to remember my grandfather because he did everything for me when I was younger and was also always there for me. He would always babysit after school when I was younger and I will always remember it. Every morning, I get the pleasure to look at the chain in the mirror and I remember him, which could be thought of as a bad thing because it could show that I’m sad about it. Obviously I miss him, but it means so much to me that I can remember him everyday and I would rather do that than never think of him. He was such a good man, and the fact that I get to wear something that he wore everyday is such a blessing to me. 

This chain, even though it is an inanimate and intangible object, has definitely shaped me into the person I am today.

The second reason that this chain means so much to me is that everything my grandfather ever stood for, I think that I should carry that on as I am wearing his chain now. He was such a good person and would do anything for anybody like taking care of his grandkids whenever they needed something. When he was here, he was such an important part of my life and if I could be partially like him, that is exactly what I would want. My grandfather was also a family first man. Whenever something happened in the family, he would always drop what he was doing to be there. I’ve thought for a while and couldn’t think of a time when he wasn’t there for me or another family member, like when he would always take care of us and put everything he was doing aside when my mom or dad needed to work or couldn’t be home with us. 

This chain, even though it is an inanimate and intangible object, has definitely shaped me into the person I am today. Just knowing that I wear something that my grandfather did makes me feel so special and also afraid. It scares me because I feel that I have to live up to his expectations, and I don’t want to disappoint him. Me wearing this chain is basically, in the way i think, carrying around my grandfather everywhere. I would never want to disappoint him and I always get scared because everyone always makes mistakes, but I don’t want to disappoint him. I wear this chain everywhere and never take it off. It is my lucky charm and I wear it for every hockey game. If I don’t, I feel I will not play well in that game. It is also a good thing for me that I get to wear this chain because I can represent him everyday, and even though no one knows that, I will always know that. Even though representing him can be a bit sad, exciting, and also scary, it is so worth it. Even though I am afraid of disappointing him, I don’t think I will because to my family,  he was never forgotten and every time someone asks me about my chain, I get to bring him which makes me the most happy. If I didn’t have my grandfather in my life, even though I was younger, I would most definitely be a different person than I am today. Even though he isn’t with us anymore, he will always have shaped me into the person I am today.