Most often a sin is only committed once, but that is not always the case. The worst sins are the ones that occur multiple times. One sin that occurs multiple times is procrastination. Procrastination is a sin that has always occurred for me. Although I am aware of it, it is hard to control. I often convince myself that I have plenty of time, so much so that I end up running out of time before I know it. Although procrastination is a sin, I wear my letter P proudly as it is my choice to be sinful and a choice that I must own.
Although procrastination is not a typical sin, it still has its punishments. One painful punishment is stress. By waiting for the last moment, it leaves little time for mistakes and setbacks. This dramatically increases stress levels as everything must be done perfectly and in a short amount of time. The second major punishment of procrastination is lack of sleep. This is due to the belief that the work will not take very long. This theory is often wrong and results in a lack of sleep in order to cram in the last hours of work that went unaccounted for. These punishments may not seem severe at first, but they quickly become catastrophic when procrastination occurs everyday
When procrastination becomes catastrophic, it is easy to feel guilty. Procrastination is caused only by the actions of the procrastinator and is not affected by any other factors. This puts the blame directly on the procrastinator and no one else. Although I feel guilty for procrastinating, I am not ashamed about it. Procrastinating is apart of who I am and I must own it. I can not hide it or ignore it. I make the decision to procrastinate, but also hold the power to stop for the betterment of my life and the people around me.
Throughout my life I have always been aware of the negatives that procrastination present. However, I am not able to stop sinning. Every day I tell myself I will not sin, but I manage to sin anyways. It has become apart of my routine and cannot be stopped. It has engulfed my life and has permanently become apart of me. Despite this never ending circle of repetition, I will continue to work on resolving my sin slowly in hopes of correcting it. Until then, I wear my letter proudly.
By choosing to sin proudly, the person I am today has been altered. The image of change created by my sin might originally look bad, but that is not entirely true. The punishments that are involved with procrastination have helped shape me for the better. By always being stressed I have learned to deal with it and almost ignore it entirely. This has made me a calmer person. Also, by sometimes losing sleep, I have learned to operate on low amounts of energy and sleep time. Losing sleep is very bad for health, but since I will continue to procrastinate, I might as well squeeze all the benefits out of it that I can. Although on the surface I believe that procrastination has helped me in life, deep down I know it is only a justification for my sin.
Procrastination has shaped the person I am today and has become my life long sin. Although it might come with some setbacks, those setbacks have defined who I am today and sometimes even help me. Although I feel guilty about my sin, I wear my letter P proudly as it is my own creation.