Unanswered Questions

It irritates me so much when I cannot answer a question.
I recall when I was a seventh grader and we were given a quiz about Geometry. I solved all the questions except the last one, and I stayed at the seat thinking how to solve it until lunch. I carried the problem with me when I fell asleep later that day and woke up with the answer. I screamed to my friend who was sleeping next to me. My whole class laughed at me, no one thought about it anymore but I could not be happier. It felt like a burden was released.
Then there was this time when I was filling out the application form to be an intern in a summer camp. There was a question: “What can we do to improve our organization?” I stopped and thought for a while. I thought for few days until the deadline had passed. I ended up not submitting my materials anymore. Then one day when I couldn’t sleep and my mind wandered to this question, something suddenly came up and I jumped out of my bed, wrote down everything and was so satisfied I couldn’t wait to fill the form again. It was six months after the deadline.
It is the most fulfilling feeling when I can find the solution to what I have sought for. Talking and discussing with other people to gain more knowledge about the problem is even more satisfying. Classrooms are definitely perfect to explore more about topics that I am interested in. However, I can just sit down and listen to my friends explain everything, from why Americans mostly prefer turkey to seafood to where idols get their customs for performance or why American presidents are all religious. Every time I learn something new, the world seems even bigger than it has been and I am one in thousands, millions grains of sand. Answers can come to you at anytime that you never expect them to, and I am always up for them.
Nevertheless, not all questions have answers. I have always wondered about different things around me like, “Are we the only one in the universe? What makes us human?” or questions about my life as, “What is my future? What am I going to do after college? Where am I going for college?” New questions can pop up in my head anytime and I can’t find any perfect solution for all of them. Sometimes these questions come back to me and I spend hours trying to find the answers for all of them. Still, nothing comes to me no matter how much I think about them. It’s amazing how our technology has improved so much yet we cannot find the answer to everything.
On the other hand, isn’t everyone looking for the answers to those questions as same as I am?
I remember a quote from the book I read recently: “…Imagining the future can be kind of nostalgia.” Yes! One year ago, who could imagine I would be here right now, in Hebron, Maine, next to my roommate who is already asleep, writing these lines? When my parents gave birth to me, have they ever imagined this ‘future’? When humans were just cavemen and all they cared for was to have sufficient food to survive; did anyone think of the society that we are having today? Maybe it will be in ten-years time when I have already finished my college and have a settled-down life. Maybe when people discover another planet with life, figure out why we became humans as we are today and the solutions to all the questions possible. Will I be happy that all the questions I have ever asked are all answered? Or would I dig myself to find even more complicated questions? In the end, all I can do is to wait and see the results myself.
So I continue walking on my path, carrying all kinds of questions with me.